Little things that are a big deal.

I took my first course online this week! It’s called Resilient Leadership. It's a free course, online, by Harvard. It consists of two courses, and I took both already. The first one was harder because my mental health was getting in the way, but I pushed through it, then waited a few days to be ready to take the next one.

Yes, this is a big deal to me! Being able to do this really is a big deal!

There are other courses I want to take, but I wanted to start with the shortest ones and build from there. I am taking the ones that I am finding interesting or motivating but overall is an exercise to help me keep my brain focused; make it stronger. It is extremely crucial right now to keep it busy so that I don’t easily spiral in a loop of negative, destructive thoughts.  While still finding a balance to continue working on trauma stuck points; it is not easy to recognize them, work with them, and manage them. 

When I decided to move on to the next phase in my therapy, I was doing it out of intuition. But this Tuesday, in therapy, I knew it was the right decision. Today, I can feel more of that sweet taste of recovery.

Here,

Paty ♥

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