Things I learnt this week.
Impatience is my enemy, and I was struggling with it, a lot. Fears truly are the most difficult thing to overcome- Someone said that "the world is kept whole by those who can overcome their fear, however briefly." That "shoulds" set unrealistic expectations, and that they come from guilt and shame. That "mental illness is a lot tougher than most other challenges that you face." That it takes time to build resilience... It takes TIME. I think that my impatience heavily crashed with the reality of time, and it was messy. That relapses will happen. Again and again and again. They are part of the process. That maybe I have this idea - a big picture of being healed instead of seeing it as small blocks. Sometimes I make peace with this realization, and other times I stumble and fall. I was doing okay, making bits of progress. Suddenly and unexpectedly, I had a relapse. It was a bad one and it lasted for over a week. I hit a very low point on Saturday, menta