Seven Golds

  Last week, when I came in to see my chiropractor in pain, he suggested laser therapy. He said that since I have been in physical therapy for almost a year now without recovery, maybe laser therapy was a good option for me. I didn't think about it, I just said yes. "I am willing to try anything at this point," I said. The past two weeks, I had 3 appointments a week, for this new therapy.  I also started Osteophatic Manipulative Treatment (OMT) this week, once a week. My doctor recommended it months ago, but I didn't know what it was and about a month ago in desperation I reached out, and I made an appointment for it. And I have been applying at jobs the whole week. When I was driving to an appointment earlier today, I was thinking how much I am still trying to cope with so many changes. "Still." I say and write this a lot, I thought. I had a little aha moment. Maybe I keep saying, "I am still here, or I am still coping," because I am trying to say...

“If I am going to continue in this journey of trying to build a business, I need to have a vision of what I need to do and create a plan accordingly. Even if it isn't perfect, at least I need to see where this is going.” I was internally telling this to myself a few weeks back, when my mental health started to decline due to the high demands of the business, my physical health, and running out of money. Although I don’t know what came first.  Every time I deteriorate in such a way I know some things need to change. It’s just difficult to see those things with a dysregulated nervous system. I scheduled some meetings with a few business professionals looking for some business advice. I was looking for something, but I knew I didn’t know what exactly. I also didn’t know that towards the end of the last meeting I had already received my answer and reached a decision. The decision that my heart knew in that moment it was the right one, but my mind had hoped for a different outcome. Stil...