Mt. Rainier, 2018. And how just one thing can declutter the brain.

 


I am so tired from the week, I didn't think I could write something. 
About a month or two ago I finally finished editing ALL the photos from a trip to Rainier with Lucián in 2018. I deleted a lot. Others I re-edited. 

Since I have been dealing with health problems, I haven't been able to do a complete deep cleaning in my house. The last time was in October, but it resulted in messing up my neck muscles even more, so I decided to stop. I slowly and periodically do as I can and as needed. 
My desk has been a source of stress because when I work there, I feel overwhelmed- my mind needs clean and organized spaces, but other big things have priority now. Then I get more overwhelmed because I want to clean the whole house, and I can't, or I know how long just one task will take and it feels like too much.

I finally accepted that this little thing actually keeps my mind in chaos, which results in more stress and less clarity. So, I finally cleaned it today. A big challenge came from noticing everything else that needs to be cleaned, knowing I can't now. By taking a few breaths and reminding myself that now, all that mattered, was the freaking desk.

Another one was a backpack that I have next to the desk. The cats threw up on top of it and my daughter tried cleaning it, but I needed to either wash it or throw it away. Every time I looked at the thing, I stressed out, but it was my college backpack that I wanted to keep, & I normally used it to go hiking. I realized that getting rid of it felt like the right thing to do to declutter my brain a little.  I only kept the ballet shoes that I know I will never wear from that ballet class I took.

Life felt a little lighter and less chaotic afterwards.


Question of the week- how can I ask for help?

Quote of the week: "People over profit."
"You may admire strength and might, but I am blessing all human weakness. You may seek power, but I am blessing all human vulnerability."
- God.


















Here,

Paty ♥
Loe. Zeal. Balance.

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