When our spirits break-

 

Throughout this whole process, I always thought that my spirit hadn’t been broken.

But the other day, in one of those days I don’t feel good and I am looking for more answers, I looked it up. 

It turns out it was. Completely. 

The good news is that I’m not at the beginning of repairing it. The bad news is that it’s not easy and it’s a long process.

I also looked up long term effects of abuse.

Both talked about being a long process requiring a lot of patience & perseverance, and a lot of self-compassion. Both talked about not having the wrong expectations, which is something I have gotten wrong over and over again, making the process more challenging. 

When I get trapped in negativity, I try to remember what I write in the blog. I try to remember my own words and advice to help me when I start feeling lost. This is why it’s important for me to write; i’s a glimpse of hope when I, myself, start losing it again during difficult days.

One key factor was to empower ourselves by learning how abuse works, which is something I remember when I don't feel as good- "I'm healing from abuse. It takes time. But I am also learning about it, to help myself, and help others."

Here,

Paty ♥