Caring, but not to the risk of my mental health.

 "....Therefore, we can't kill anybody, much less sit by if someone is hurting. We killed 100 million people in the last century. There are 40 wars happening today. We are on track to blow up the planet and destroy the planet through catastrophic climate change. So, there is nothing passive about love. Love is active, creative, daring, public nonviolence that resists all the forces of death."

I just wanted to share these powerful words. I, myself, am finding that staying informed & on top of the news is becoming slow suicide. I had internalized this unhealthy worrying that if I don't stay informed, I don't care enough. So, I asked my therapist today, and she was able to put me at ease. She asked me if I have proof that I actually don't care. That not engaging does not mean I don't care, but to instead know my capacity for caring. She said it is coming from a place of judgement, because caring is very important to me. She asked me to think about how does overwhelming myself help. To never do it to the risk of my mental health, or physical health, because it has been affecting my headaches.

I have been limiting my exposure, a lot, since last week. And I continued to do it more and more this week because I have been paying attention to the way I feel the moment I open Facebook.

Someone also said that when the world is too scary, to stop consuming and start creating. I know I am not strong enough to create much, yet, but I believe that by creating a few blog posts whenever I have the mental capacity to write, or posting a few photos, words, or sharing pieces of my story, is creating something. 

Here,

Paty ♥