The Healing Project.


I have this project in mind, of trying to write more often, in the blog. I also came up with a name- 'The Healing Project.' 
Right now, is just an idea, and for the next two weeks I want to test it and see if I am able to keep up with it. This idea has come up to me throughout the years, but it was during a time I couldn't even write for months, or years, sometimes. A few weeks ago, I thought about it again, but I didn’t want to just jump in. 

The truth is, I’m still nervous about it, and a bit hesitant. Given the fact that I am doing EMDR therapy and I still struggle with mental health and low energy, I want to test it out and see what happens. I easily get overwhelmed, so, I will not post it in my feed, in Instagram; I want to see how this works out. I will do my best to write short posts, and hopefully this will help with consistency, but still protecting my energies and my mind. 

So,

What is healing: Someone said that healing allows people to flourish. Someone else said we often believe healing means clean slate. But what it truly means is "I know different. And I do different." 

What healing isn't: "Healing is not an end-point."

What it is, for me: I think I have struggled to have my own definition of what healing is. I have heard many definitions from others, professionally, spiritually, and personally. I concluded that, for me, healing is a lot of things, actually. 

Which helps identify the purpose of this Project. 

Right now, today, healing is being able to do this. Even if it doesn’t work out, the fact that I can try its implementation and write this post is healing. Because I couldn’t even think it was possible last week.

Here, 

Paty. ♥️

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