Seven Golds

Someone said that we need empathy and gentleness to treat our bodies, because our bodies have been through a lot. Because when trauma enters, we exit; we get separated from our bodies.  The things my body has been through... In the process of healing my trauma, I am slowly doing my best to reconnect and comeback to my body, safely.  It’s taking some time and painful practice though. I carry the generational trauma of hostility towards women’s bodies. Learning to see and treat my body with care, love and respect hasn’t been easy. But I love how healing it is to be soft and gentle with a body that has been through a lot. A body that is still in recovery, healing slowly and learning to listen to it’s wisdom. Here, Paty ♥️

 I had a really bad episode of Borderline last week. Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday were awful. I didn't feel safe, and I thought I was back in the same dark place, which is pretty scary. My mind and my reality were already betraying me. To try to cope, on Friday, I took some photographs of objects around the house. I just waited for a perfect moment, to capture something interesting, like the sun rays on the teacup I have by my kitchen window, or a bird on the tree outside my bedroom window. When I was editing the cactus photograph, it was very hard because I immediately felt my CPTSD. My mind immediately went back and got stuck in that place of depression and photography. I told myself it was just one photo I needed to finish. I also forced myself to read for 20 minutes, to keep my mind distracted.   Working on the teacup photographs helped a lot because I was focusing on the details of the dirt, with different templates, B&W, and color. On Thursday, I took some ph...