Thank you, dear past. I got it from here.

 


Remember when I wrote a powerful post about a journey ending and another beginning?

I was wrong.

I was still healing, working with trauma & my mental health. But I was trying; I know that for sure.

For many years I struggled, anxiously, wanting to make it to that end. Perhaps looking forward to that kept me alive for a while until I realized it was also keeping me away from truly healing. I lost hope in that ending a lot of times. At times I pushed and tried on my own merits. Other times I made peace with the timing of the journey. Things started getting better, slowly, at this point.

Suddenly, it just happened. The ending of that significant phase.

I don't know how to explain it or how to explain the internal process of the past days. It feels like a miracle and at the same time, unreal. I don't think I know how to really process it yet.

But this post is more about the future and its purpose than about what is ending.

Here is what's next:

  • I am going to use my inner power and leadership skills to thrive & help others thrive.
  • I am going to use my communication skills to teach & create consciousness about abuse, trauma, oppression, mental health & suicide.
  • I hope to inspire others to seek their own true passion & purpose in life. 
  • I am going to truly step into my powers, skills and abilities without fears or doubts. Trust in myself and my Journey.
  • Continue expressing my true self & creativity.
  • Continue living in alignment with my soul.
  • Talk about light & darkness. 
  • Share my Journey.
  • Fully devote my life to this purpose, passion.
  • Protect others & fight for what is right.
  • Create balance between soul, mind & body. Between spiritual, material & family.
  • Enjoy a fulfilled life, Live. 
This new phase in my life will be about preparing myself for when the time comes to start writing the book and sharing the journey. It is a time of sorting out and planning. It will no longer be focused on healing and my mental health - I can't believe I am writing this!!

I am going to start with what I have, making improvements along the way. 
Sharing my journey as it unfolds.

Thank you for being here.

Paty ♥

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