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"Is it possible to live so defensively that you never get to live at all?" Rachel Naomi Remen

"At the heart of her question [...] is the difference between surviving and thriving, between existing and living, between resignation and joy."

"As human beings, our distrust builds a hardened resolve over our innocence." "Only the quiet, daily courage to be can let the air soften our hearts again."



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