Seven Golds

This post is to create awareness between concussions, which are more common in females, and those who have migraines, mental health problems and had a prior concussion, which I had when I had the car accident. Having concussions and mental health issues can be very scary. I asked my therapist last week, “what was that? Because it scared the hell out of me and I need to understand. It wasn’t my normal darkness taking me down. It was more scary and fast and real.” These were my thoughts as Angel was getting out the door late morning on Saturday, 4th of July weekend and I was  staying home with a mild concussion.  As I washed a few dishes I recognized my suicidal thoughts, mainly because they were more intense and out of the blue. My own thoughts scared me, especially knowing I was home alone and vulnerable. But because it scared me, I was able to quickly get out of there and save myself. “Oh no!! We are not doing this!” I said to myself. My therapist said that there is a link be...

 I actually have a lot to talk about, but I am still recovering from a mild concussion due to accidentally hitting my head on the wall almost two weeks ago. There is a story behind this. I found out today that a person I follow on Instagram passed away from cancer. They was a poet and has been of great inspiration throughout my healing journey. I learned about Andrea Gibson on "We can do hard things" podcast. I remember writing down almost everything they said, and going back to their wisdom a few times. I actually thought about their yesterday. Every time I feel insecure with my body, I remember something they said- “I just want to have a body.”  I have struggled a great deal with darkness, but their words on darkness have lifted and guided me along the journey: "the darkness contains many truths that could bring the light to its knees." And about healing, they reminded, with their words, that "True healing requires integration, not rejection." That ...